January 8, 2018 at 12:59 AM

“The Dark Night of the Soul”

I feel like I am dying 

Sitting in front of the computer screen reading articles and gasping “me too” so loud in my mind it comes out of my ears

Bounces off the walls 

And vibrates 

Sitting here ready to crawl out of my flesh 

My inside clawing at each individual c e l l

An ache so deep for relase that I feel the layers of my existence peel back 

The room so focused it is like tv on a screen that is way too high-def 

Is this living for the moment? In the moment?

Or is it begging to understand what you cannot quite grasp about reality that is really real, that every book you read said is really there 

And it feels like if your astral body could just for one moment reach its hand through your flesh you could grasp

You could feel 

You could consume

What your human brain cannot fathom 

A woman in New Orleans once told me 

You have one life left to live